missing

I finally got on the computer after forever and I am getting so depressed for many reasons at the moment.
For one dad took my laptop away when I clearly didn't agree with him on it, he said I agreed that I was to have it for school and that only, when I told him I would use it otherwise aswell as for school.
The next thing is that I miss Jer so much at the moment, I don't know how long it has been since I have heard from him and I want nothing more for his name to appear on my list with the 'online' icon next to it I would die of happiness from nothing more then thay. Seeing the words "Hello sweety" would just make me so happy I am sure I would cry, but I have been waiting for a reply to my last 2 e-mails and today it just kinda hit me and all the bad thoughts for him and I almost cryed because of it, I want to talk to him so much it actually hurts me sometimes -_-
I think I should stop now, I am upsetting myself alot. I just wish....
One good thing is that I got a DVD today, I went to the new jb hi-fi store at tuggrah and got DNAngel the first one, I watched it when I got home and it was good, it made me feel alittle happier